I have lost 15 family members to war

I am Sadiq Islamyaar. I have lost 15 family members from 1984 to 2014. My family has lost too many people to this war. The first incident took place on November 24, 1984, when my paternal family house in Feshgan Village in Herat was bombed by Soviet forces supporting the Afghan Communist regime. The bomb killed a total of 13 people including my paternal grandfather, three uncles and my maternal grandfather. My father and my two other uncles were injured but survived. One of my uncles were married. Both my uncle and his wife were killed. But they their 8-years old daughter, Zinnat survived, only to be killed 8 years later during a clash between two rival Mujahidin groups. According to my family, she had been walking from the dining room to the kitchen to bring tea when a stray bullet hit her in the head. She was only 16. Zinnat was a very beautiful young lady and everyone loved her. My paternal grandfather was illiterate, but my maternal grandfather was a Mullah and Haji (a relatively well-off practicing Muslim who can afford to travel to Mecca in Saudi Arabia). After the first incident, my father and his two brothers, all still underage, had no one to support them. They had to work at other people’s homes for their daily food and shelter for almost a decade. When they grew up, they built a new house exactly at the same location of the one destroyed by the air raid. But this was not the end of my family’s grief and loss. My 26-year old brother, Abdul Sabir, was killed in a suicide attack on March 9, 2014. His death further deteriorated my father’s mental and physical health. My brother was married and he is survived by a five-years-old daughter, Hadisa.